As nice as it was to focus on some crafts over the last few weeks, I had an interesting thought. Why do I have so many hobbies? Why do I want to learn how to do so many different things?
One of the things that I’ve taken an interest in lately is painting.
My favourite pastime at the moment is splashing random paint colours onto a canvas with no rhyme or reason, then creating a stencil with my Cricut, and painting a solid colour into the stencil, or stencil negative, depending on my mood.
It’s pretty straight forward actually. I often find myself creating words or phrases as a stencil.
To date, my favourite is “Dance with Fear” which I’ve painted onto a few canvases, and also designed a t-shirt that says the same.
I picked this phrase up when attending a summit with strong, successful women. “Dance with Fear” means approach things that scare you, don’t run from it.
I wrote in a previous post about the brain not knowing the difference between the fear of something life threatening (a sabre-tooth tiger) and the fear of social scares (public speaking).
Dancing with fear means you logically know the difference. Don’t dance with sabre-tooth tigers. Dance with public speaking.
Unless there’s a chance of it killing you, get out there and try. Overcome your fear by dancing with it.
Well that was a brief tangent story, and not really what I wanted this post to be about.
Crafting an Alternative
Lately I’ve enjoyed making these canvases, and so I spend a lot of time in Michael’s buying supplies. I always know exactly what I need in the store and where to find it.
Like I said, lately it’s been the ‘paint’ or ‘fine arts’ section.
Prior to this I’d find myself in the candle making section. I’d buy jars, wicks, scents, and wax.
Then I’d come home and make 3-6 candles each night. By the time I reached 50 candles, I thought I needed to stop.
This hobby was costing a lot of money, and since I couldn’t sell the candles, I was just creating a storage issue.
What will I do with all these candles? Sure I can burn them, but at this point I was making candles faster than I could use them.
Yes, my husband suggested I sell them online and helped me to create a brand, but even before that project was finished, I already knew it wasn’t something I wanted to do.
Selling is not my forte. Unless I was willing to sell them in order to make the money back to fund the hobby, it didn’t make sense to keep this one up.
I stopped making candles. Insert sad face and the sound of heartbreak.
Eventually I will run into the same problem with painting canvases, however this is a much cheaper hobby.
Once I run into the problems of space (what will I do with all these canvases that are currently just stacked on top of the dogs’ crate?), I will need to either sell, donate, gift, or throw away.
Because the canvas costs less to make, I have no issues giving these away to anyone who shows interest.
Either way, this is a future problem and not one I need to concern myself with now.
A Lack of Focus?
Prior to candle making, I got really big into cross stitch. This is also a cheap hobby, unless you’re like me, and need all the threads, needles, hoops, material, and patterns.
I also bought a couple books so I could learn how to do this properly. I made a few small patterns, and then did a bigger one for my daughter that took a solid month two summers ago.
I attempted a harder one for my son and eventually quit.
Before cross-stitch, I think it was jigsaw puzzles.
Anyway, I spend a lot of time buying various project needs in Michael’s and one day while perusing the scrap-booking section I met a woman looking for something in particular.
Something to do with rubber stamps, but I can’t remember what specifically.
She started to tell me about her hobby, and why she needed specific items from specific stores.
I wish I could remember in detail what she said to me, but even at the time I thought “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
She spoke to me like I should know. This is similar to “Mod Podge” – I have no idea what this is, but I believe I should. I’ve seen it in the store, but don’t know what to do with it.
What sort of crafts can you do with Mod Podge? Do I need to buy this? Maybe I should Google it or look for ideas on Pinterest.
Why do I need a new hobby?
I like painting, candle making, and the occasional cross-stitch. I like making paper crafts using my Cricut.
I already like so much, why do I need to find out what Mod Podge does? Why do I find myself wanting to Google whatever this woman was talking about?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized what was bothering me.
It wasn’t that I hadn’t heard of what she was doing. It bothered me that she knew so much about this specific craft because it was her focus.
Why don’t I have a focus?
- Why couldn’t I just be the acrylic paint girl? Not even oil paint or water colours, just acrylic.
- Why can’t I know about all the different types of paint brushes and their specific uses?
- Why can’t I learn how to make canvases so that I don’t have to buy the pre-made stapled ones?
Why do I also need to know about candle waxes, thread counts, and SVG files?
I’ve always been a learner… love learning new things. As soon as I become proficient (not necessarily mastering it), I tend to drop it to find something new.
Sure, I could blame it on storage space, but I think it’s more than this.
Likely this is a symptom of anxiety. Always needing to know more, to do more, to prove my worth while enhancing my skillset.
The question I’m pondering now is: Am I running from my anxieties or creating them?
Since I don’t know the answer, I’ll leave it with you…