It’s official. I broke one of my New Year’s rules and joined another course. That’s the second time this year. Sigh.
Hear me out while I justify things, because, let’s face it, we can always justify why we break rules.
In January, I listed all of the courses I was already signed up for, and then I told myself I would not join any other courses until those ones were finished. My list had six programs/courses on it.
Six. Unfinished. Courses. That I had paid for.
In the first three months of the year, I completed three. If you look at the list of accomplishments, that’s a big win.
But if you compare it to the list of remaining programs, well, I’m only halfway there.
The fourth course on the list, is the biggest of all. Around this time last year when I started the program, it took me about 4 months to get halfway through.
And then I put things on hold for the summer since I was living out of the cottage with a full time job, and solo-parenting two children on summer holidays.
I justified putting the course on hold. But when it came time to pick it back up, I had major difficulty.
And if I’m being honest, I’m still struggling with this one. I am slowly reading through all the work I already completed for it, before I can move on to the second half of the program.
This will take time. Once that’s done, I will begin the other two, which will take me less time.
Adding New Before Finishing the Old
While reading and re-learning course #4, I saw an ad for an online gym membership. Even though I promised myself I wouldn’t pay for more programs, I opted in to this one.
First, it was only a one time payment of $27. Second, I put it on the shelf once I received it. I feel both good and bad about this.
It’s good because I promised to do those other courses before I started this new one, but it’s bad because I find myself thinking, “Great, another thing on the shelf.”
Anyway, from a monetary perspective, it’s not that bad. I’ve got my attention focused on the courses with the highest price tags.
All is good in the world of my brain. Until last night, when I saw an ad for “Learning to Paint with Feliks”.
I watched this ad a number of times. Surprisingly, I wasn’t sparked by the paintings themselves. Although good, it wasn’t what grabbed my attention.
I found myself looking at the guy’s name. Feliks.
Mentally, I imagine this is pronounced “Felix”, but I found myself saying “Fell-icks” – the difference is in the first syllable.
Over and over I was saying Fell-icks, and then correcting myself, knowing it was probably incorrect.
Weird, right? That that was the thing that caught my attention.
Then I felt bad because I was deliberately mispronouncing the guy’s name in my head. Not a single soul would have known this, but out of respect for Feliks and his art, I decided to watch the ad again for what it was trying to pitch.
And then, only then, did I realize, “Damn, that would be cool to learn to paint like that.”
The Price of Adding Up
It, too, was a good price point. Like the gym membership, I bought it for $27.
Unlike the gym membership, I plan to crack this course on weekends. Maybe even get the kids involved.
I might need to buy more paint and canvases, but at the moment, I believe I have what I need to start. Including the kids means I might need to buy easels and things, but for myself, I’m ready to begin now.
That is how I justified breaking my own rule. And I don’t actually feel too guilty about it either.
As long as I continue to plug away at my initial list, I should be able to reward myself with a little bit of shopping.
Who knows, maybe learning to paint with Feliks will improve my mental health as well.
I’ll definitely keep you posted.
Even if my artwork turns into one of those ‘epic Pinterest fails’.