From last week to this week there has been absolutely no change. Nothing. I haven’t started running or meditating again (shame on me).
I’m still working crazy long hours and stressed. I’m still solo-parenting and house hunting, and walking dogs four times a day.
And yet, big change.
Mentally, I’m in a different place. I feel better. I feel a tiny bit of relief. I don’t feel as stressed.
I have no idea why.
Maybe it’s simply because it’s the weekend, but honestly, I started to feel better earlier in the week.
Maybe it’s because I have a vacation coming up, but that’s still a week away.
I really don’t get it. There is no reason to feel better as my circumstances haven’t changed.
In a way, maybe they have.
Last weekend I made a choice. I told myself that the upcoming week would be better.
I haven’t figured out how to lighten my work load, even though I’m constantly saying ‘no’ when people ask me to do something that they are capable of doing themselves.
Instead, I told myself that I would do what I could do with a positive attitude and the rest could wait.
When I shut down the computer, I refused to think about work anymore until the next day.
I wouldn’t say that I changed my attitude, but I did change my outlook. I refused to feel the overwhelm of my daily life. It doesn’t have to be overwhelming.
I read a quote recently that went something like this,
If it’s not going to be important in five years, don’t spend five minutes worrying about it today.
I’m going to give Jay Shetty props for that quote, however, I apologize for it not being verbatim.
I’m disconnected from the Internet as I type this and I can’t look it up. Anyway, you get the gist.
It doesn’t do any good stressing about things that will be forgotten about or irrelevant in a few weeks time.
Instead of thinking about all the things I’m not able to get to on my list today, or even about the things that I will inevitably have to do tomorrow, I’m not going to think about anything at all.
What a relief that is. Being thoughtless. Stress-less. It’s freeing.
Seeing as I’m not stressed about tomorrow, I can focus on right now.
I’ve also learned that it doesn’t help to think negatively.
Granted, some people still grind my gears, but since they won’t be in my life five years from now, there’s no point in spending five minutes thinking about it today.
Those are the words of wisdom I’m sharing today. If you can’t be happy, just be. Stop worrying.
Oh. And also, please remind me of these things when I start stressing again – because we all know, it’s bound to happen.
For now though, I’m happy and at peace… and almost on vacation!